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Apr. 1st, 2012 02:40 am[Filter: Private]
Even if I could join them on this one... Hah, this is a strange thought. We've finally come to the puzzle that I'm not going to touch, and not for lack of ability. I've climbed a mountain before, I know the general difficulties with it. I've read the tales of experienced climbers. I've spoken with men who challenged the more difficult peaks in the Erans. I doubt it's the puzzle itself.
I'm tired. I've grown tired of leading the charge to finish these. I've grown tired of watching these puzzles pull all of us closer and closer to our breaking points. Even in a puzzle where we couldn't get permanently hurt we were treated brutally. The training rooms that led up to it lulled us. We slammed our heads into a wall when we came out of the other side of them. Now we're given a puzzle which might not give us such a safe passage. Was the giant shadow a way to lure us to our wall again? Are we supposed to still believe we're invincible?
They'll be fine in Faith and Sawyer's hands. I have every confidence in their ability to lead. Intentionally or not though, it leads me back to why I might be so tired. I'm not young enough to appreciate this challenge anymore. The younger knights are the stronger ones, and they'll carry this puzzle.
The Moon Festival is coming up on us fast. It will have been a year spent digging ourselves down to where Danu told us to go. Are we ever going to reach the bottom?
Even if I could join them on this one... Hah, this is a strange thought. We've finally come to the puzzle that I'm not going to touch, and not for lack of ability. I've climbed a mountain before, I know the general difficulties with it. I've read the tales of experienced climbers. I've spoken with men who challenged the more difficult peaks in the Erans. I doubt it's the puzzle itself.
I'm tired. I've grown tired of leading the charge to finish these. I've grown tired of watching these puzzles pull all of us closer and closer to our breaking points. Even in a puzzle where we couldn't get permanently hurt we were treated brutally. The training rooms that led up to it lulled us. We slammed our heads into a wall when we came out of the other side of them. Now we're given a puzzle which might not give us such a safe passage. Was the giant shadow a way to lure us to our wall again? Are we supposed to still believe we're invincible?
They'll be fine in Faith and Sawyer's hands. I have every confidence in their ability to lead. Intentionally or not though, it leads me back to why I might be so tired. I'm not young enough to appreciate this challenge anymore. The younger knights are the stronger ones, and they'll carry this puzzle.
The Moon Festival is coming up on us fast. It will have been a year spent digging ourselves down to where Danu told us to go. Are we ever going to reach the bottom?
